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This week blog post is not something that will take you to a happy place.

So this is an early warning as you will decide wether you would read this further or just simply close the tab.

I should warn you, don’t make mistake because we will soon to discuss some sensitive matters. Just a precaution, by reading this you may be triggered to get sad, anxiety, etc.

Really sorry, but I have to let this one out anyway.

Well the story should continue and here it goes,

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Mistakes, by 22 years experiences of living I noticed that our life revolves around mistakes. It seems like where ever we run it chase. It stick tight to our skin like slugs.

By the time I write this, I myself are actually in the middle of creating a HUGE mistake. Not, by writing this post, but another stuff that is just too painful to talk about.

Everybody have a place to go to, a particular thing that they always do, or even a time that would heal them from pain sculpted from mistakes they made.

This is a way for me to release all of the anxieties. Its just sometimes everything get too much, as not only me but everybody who actually want things to be perfect, and just keep on forgetting that we only human who could make mistakes many times.

Mistakes could be made by a lot of things. Even some of the things that we did not plan or hoped for. Maybe even YOU have experienced this little slip that is just so sneaky, that make a whole lots of things twisted over.

If only, just, If only we could have a little buttons that would rewind the time so we could go back in time and re-do all of the things that would keep us away from any mistakes. I know we all have ever thought about this, even once it counts!

Here, I am not trying to say, “hey! life without mistakes are just too plain” or “hey! mistakes is just God’s way to show us something better”. Those kind of things are just too cliche and everybody have heard such things a lot that I dont even need to say it again.

I am here simply to release my tension, nothing else. This is a happy place for me to run to. A way for me to just calms me down and ease me in into life.

Life overwhelms me sometimes, many many things that just slide out of my control. I am just a human that would blame other things for my mistakes. Even an impossible things like time, place, or just an ordinary objects that has NOTHING to do with mistakes I made. I am just a human who has been told to not to do such thing. I am just a human who would just want to run away from all of the tension and shame at that point of time.

I could just avoid making this mistakes or could just got out of the situation. But life really push me to play the game and sticks me to the board  like a pawn, up until I got kicked out of the game. I DONT EVEN KNOW I AM IN THE GAME!

I still don’t know how could I got out of this. by place, time, or things. I could just delay all of the tension by writing unstructured stuff like this.

I dont know wether any other people ever feel like i feel right now, Being dumbed out like this. It is just too crazy to think that I always say “we have to face those fear” bla bla bla BUT NOW I CANT even say a word to make me at least a little bit motivated. 

Do all human feel this? or its just me?

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Been tagged by : @octariags and @cynthiansunartio .. so finally here’s mine.. those of you who’ve been tagged here u just need to post a picture and state 20 facts about you and dont forget to tag many other people!

1. My real name is vanya qinthara
2. People started to call me minyo when I was in highschool
3. I am 22 y.o
4. I own a youtube channel called minyo33
5. I once won a beauty pageant during high school
6. I love to cook
7. I love to create drinks
8. Hence I own a restaurant
9. My fave color is gold pink and black
10. I am single
11. I am an open minded person
12. I am a happy go lucky kind of girl
13. Love to party
14. I own a cat called kikiw
15. I can’t drive
16. I play golf
17. I love spicy food
18. I used to diet a lot. Lost about 30 ish kgs
19. I own a food blog
20. I love karaoke altho I have an ugly voice

  • 01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
  • yes
  • 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?
  • mama
  • 03: Do you regret anything?
  • of course! we are human anyways
  • 04: Are you insecure?
  • yes
  • 05: What is your relationship status?
  • single and looking, lol
  • 06: How do you want to die?
  • should i really think about it? lol
  • 07: What did you last eat?
  • snack time this mid morning
  • 08: Played any sports?
  • yes, golf.
  • 09: Do you bite your nails?
  • not anymore
  • 10: When was your last physical fight?
  • about a year ago
  • 11: Do you like someone?
  • yes
  • 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?
  • yepp! during my final assignments
  • 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?
  • not really
  • 14: Do you miss someone?
  • yessss
  • 15: Have any pets?
  • yes, a cat called kikiw
  • 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?
  • irritated because of the hot weather
  • 17: Ever made out in the bathroom?
  • yeps
  • 18: Are you scared of spiders?
  • ohh yaassss
  • 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
  • we all would! wouldn't we?
  • 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?
  • whats snogged?
  • 21: What are your plans for this weekend?
  • filming for my weekdays youtube vlog
  • 22: Do you want to have kids? How many?
  • yes, 3
  • 23: Do you have piercings? How many?
  • yes, 8 in left ear, 3 in right ear
  • 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?
  • art, duh!
  • 25: Do you miss anyone from your past?
  • yesss
  • 26: What are you craving right now?
  • molten chocolate cake from dominos
  • 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?
  • yes
  • 28: Have you ever been cheated on?
  • yess
  • 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
  • yes
  • 30: What’s irritating you right now?
  • its freakin hot!
  • 31: Does somebody love you?
  • yes
  • 32: What is your favourite color?
  • gold
  • 33: Do you have trust issues?
  • yes
  • 34: Who/what was your last dream about?
  • i put too much blush on and walk around the city looking like clown.. or more like korban kdrt
  • 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?
  • forgot lol
  • 36: Do you give out second chances too easily?
  • yes
  • 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?
  • forget
  • 38: Is this year the best year of your life?
  • yes
  • 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?
  • 17
  • 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?
  • nooooo! what am i? crazy?
  • 51: Favourite food?
  • riceee
  • 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
  • yes
  • 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
  • watchin some youtube
  • 54: Is cheating ever okay?
  • nooo
  • 55: Are you mean?
  • aww yazzz
  • 56: How many people have you fist fought?
  • lol.. too many
  • 57: Do you believe in true love?
  • yes
  • 58: Favourite weather?
  • spring
  • 59: Do you like the snow?
  • never seen one before
  • 60: Do you wanna get married?
  • maybe?
  • 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
  • yasss
  • 62: What makes you happy?
  • making people happy
  • 63: Would you change your name?
  • no
  • 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
  • no
  • 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
  • hmm.. accept it if i feel like it lol
  • 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?
  • yass
  • 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
  • my dad
  • 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?
  • forgot
  • 69: Do you believe in soulmates?
  • yes
  • 70: Is there anyone you would die for?
  • yessss

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